1. My greatest fear is, like Portia, the possibility of not fulfilling my purpose before I leave this earth. Many years ago I prayed for God to use me and I didn’t realize he was by allowing me to suffer in different areas. Yesterday I received a phone call and the person apologized for ‘bothering me’ as I was out with my mom. I explained to her that God has no set schedule and when you’re operating in your anointing you have to always be available.
2. I’m afraid of growing old alone! Over the past few years I have used my alone time to work on me. I’m a much better person for that and I really need that time alone; but God said it’s not good for man to be alone. My illness requires me to depend on others and my mom and my daughter are amazing caretakers, but I’m still young and so full of life that I want that someone special to enjoy life with. I’m a very social being and I love people.
3. I’m somewhat afraid of heights. I’m ok if I am surrounded by what I view as protection: glass, walls, rails. I realized this when we visited Stone Mountain some 20 years ago. The ride to the top in the cable car was really nice. When we started to walk down the mountain and I realized how high up we were and there was nothing surrounding me that could protect me, I panicked and experienced my first anxiety attack. They had to put me back in the cable car so I could ride back down. (Lol: Stone Mountain is not that high). Stadiums are the worst. I attended the Black Rodeo and our seats were in the nosebleed section. My girlfriend and my daughter had to hold my hands while we walked up. I had a few glasses of wine while waiting for the show. When TUCKA, the king of swing started performing I was standing and dancing in the aisle. My daughter and girlfriend looked at each other in total disbelief and said “I thought she was afraid of heights.” After the wine wire off they had to hold my hands going down. Lol
